I took myself to dinner tonight and had an hour and half long conversation with a close friend over the phone.
In a matter of hours I will begin a new chapter in my life.
I come from a loving family, stricken with the burden of loss and financial hardship.
I was raised by two parents who loved one another.
I became a man, alone. I witnessed my father's death. I taught myself how to shave. I taught myself how to deal with grief, anxiety, anger, sadness, and the unknown.
Lately I have dealt with a great deal of anxiety due to a number of reasons.
I am a man of security. I am not perfect, but I feel at peace in my heart and mind when I have security. Knowing all is taken care of. I grew up and worked my ass off to be where I am now- successful, independent, and overall happy.
Lately though, things have been changing around me. Some within my power, some not. Which has caused me to pause. Prohibiting me from the best version of myself.
I truly believe this quote by Marianne Williamson sums up just how very intense my emotions are and have been even more so as of late.
I have so much on my mind this weekend I just hope for my future's sake I'm ready. Because I'm coming in full-steam ahead no matter the outcome. I am who I am and I will be unapologetic in nature. I was born with a voice within me that guides me daily, and so were you.
Go forth and stay true. Never let fear win, never let the day end feeling uneasy or insecure. Never give up hope.
This post is for those out there struggling.
It does not matter the level, avenue, background, or matter.
If you are scared or unsure of how the world perceives what are the things that make you in fact you- set your anxiety aside, let go of the fear.
Do not let another moment go where your inner voice is telling you something and you ignore it.
Stop questioning yourself and stand strong.
Fear is the dampener to the flame within you.
Down and down we go..... why is going down easier than going up? Why is it harder to believe? Why is it harder to have faith and focus on our intentions rather then our desires? We all ask why! We cannot answer this, but we can.... WE are different, WE have different opinions than others. WE can only focus on ourselves and WE can only love what we desire. Now is the time to change, change our ways, change our strategy and focus on the highs rather then the downs. Be YOU be yourself.. it's time to shine, it's time to get out of the cage and open the door free- get that golden key 🔑 and unlock that cage your in, walk out feeling loved and happy, focus on the light. Feel the warm-shining beautiful lights. As you walk out you see the white, calming, beautiful glow that's appointed to you, because YOU are that glow and only you can glow. "ITS TIME TO SHINE BRIGHT". Be bright and glow, ask the angels... ask others to help YOU! They are waiting for you to change your actions and ways, time for YOU to focus on your desires than addictions. Time to believe and move on, get those wings and fly away into the horizon and find your destiny. find YOUR calling, BE FREE LITTLE BIRD 🐦 BE FREE! Just felt like writing so here is my message for the day xxx BE FREE!!! Love & light xx #messageoftheday#letgo#fly#flylittlebird#believe#angels 😇 #you#we#loveyou#moveon#motivationalwords
should you know how much I love you, you calm me from my nightmares go . should you understand how you I admire you have lived in the trough of the liver. how crushed my heart to see you with him but I'm trying to toughen up deal with it.