I woke up this morning feeling blessed for having amazing people in my life, people who love and care for me. I woke up this morning feeling blessed for my health - and for the gift of life.
I am still learning that in order for love and light to grow, I need to grow. I need to change... I have a tendency to push people away when they get too close, I also have the tendency to be very pessimistic and dark at times (perhaps due to life experience and personal challenges). I have the ability to completely separate my thoughts from my emotion and act leading from my head rather than my heart - and as a typical crab let my hardened shell protect my inner self, even to my own detriment. I am Cancerian after all. Textbook as a matter of fact.
But guess what, I have decided to make a conscious effort to be happy... to be grateful... to be thankful... to try to be optimistic. About life, about love and about all my blessings. We so easily take for granted what is given to us... we forget that nothing is owed to us, and that every single second of each day is a gift.
I have a loving family, a wonderful boyfriend (who has supported me through so much) and a couple of true friends. I have all my limbs, and some what healthy organs. A stable job, a roof over my head and food to eat every day. How is it that I still forget to say thank you (most days), how is it I get to complain about trivial things when others are less fortunate. How is it that I get lost in the mundane tasks of work and life and forget to breathe and take in, and just enjoy the moment. Each moment is a gift, each moment is time loaned... none of us will be here forever. And when we are gone, will the world and the people in your life be better for having us in it? If not, maybe it's time to reassess, re evaluate and regroup. Maybe it's time to change from within instead of expecting change to come externally.
Maybe, just maybe we can all DO and BE better.
And I would like to make that start today.