I wasn't even sure I was going to acknowledge today, publicly. But, this journey of mine IS mine for some reason. And perhaps drawing attention...or awareness...to it may help someone. The issue I have with that statement is that I don't just want to help one person. I want women to know that although you may not have carried a baby past the first trimester, or even past a few weeks, the pain of loss and dealing with grief is still so damn hard.
Today is the day he/she would have been due. Today I would have been in the final hours (or days) of holding our sweet child that I planned for. I would have had that damn crib that's still sitting in one of our spare rooms put together. I would have had a breast pump all ready to go. I would have nested our home and made it welcoming for our child.
But that's not my reality. And I'm not sharing this terrible, crappy day with you all for sympathy or pity. I hate that I even have to include that statement in my posts now. 😏😕
I share this to stand tall with other women who've gone through what I have and their family and friends who have watched a loved one deal with this.
I've kept myself busy as best I could. I sucked back tears throughout my workout. I breathed in fresh air while taking a 3 mile hike with my in-laws. I've even captured dozens of hugs and kisses from my husband when he could tell I needed them...and when I didn't.
Miscarriages suck. Loss freakin' sucks. The unknown of trying again is even more suffocating for my heart and my mind. We will try again but not for a little longer. The grief is perhaps too much for me to be able to capture the thought or carrying another child of ours.
Today is a hard day but a day I am lucky to have with my husband and the family we do have---including that little soul that awaits us somewhere, someday. 👶🏻 🙏🏼
#selfcare is made possible and brought to you by: 🛀🏻 R E L A X I N G
📖 reading kick ass books
🙏🏻 turning your will over to Divine Source 🦄 trusting your value in this world
🥑 nourishing your body 💭 thinking gentle thoughts
⚡️ saying "no" when you mean it
🌈 listening to your inner guidance
Actually adoreeeeee our little group on Facebook @lacey_sb !! Amazing seeing everyone post every day when they are meditating, proper inspiring me ❤️ Half way through the 30 day challenge, anyone can start any time link in my bio if you want to join 😍💖👌
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Omg. My biggest temptation is mochas (and pizza and tacos and chocolate and.. haha) - I could drink them day and night. And I allow myself a mocha on Friday, but sometimes I get carried away and buy like five a week.
I always have great excuses, like - one more won't hurt, I didn't sleep well last night and I'm tired, or it's a busy day at the office. I was fearing one today, but opted for a yummy cafe latte mocha. Not only does it taste amazing, but it's packed with superfoods that make me feel alive and awake. No sugar crash for me. And I even added spinach to get in a veggie serving. Healthy options don't have to taste bad or make you feel like your sacrificing!
When you change the way you think, you change the way you feel. When you change the way you feel, you change the way you act. When you change the way you act, you change your life. #positivemind#morningthoughts#selfhelp
Understand people need to trust you to do business with you. People don't just do business with anyone, they need to get to know you see that your intentions are to assist not to just make money. In a world today where everyone is corrupt and just out for money people don't really trust anyone anymore, they must first get to know you and trust you then and only then will they be willing and ready to do business with you. #SuccessfulWSerg _
We tend to associate joy with pleasure, but pain is also part of what it is to be human. We aren't asked to enjoy pain, only to remain conscious as it is passing through us. This is real life. Real, grow-up life. ™@sacredsara
I've never felt this good in my life even before my son I wasn't confident enough to wear a bathing suit and let me tell you it feels amazing to walk around knowing if someone is looking at you is because your looking good 👌🏼 #positivemind#bodyonprogress#stillgotmeat
So the boyfriend and I like to go to book stores; flip through books, and read out loud the page the book lands on. It's our way of letting the universe and the spirits around us speak to us. Coincidentally, one of the pages I landed on had the quote above by #LRKnost . It was so powerful, heartfelt, truthful, and beautiful that we had to share it with you all. #StriveToBeDifferent