I guess it starts today... I'm going to focus into setting my life back together and start to lay low until I find myself. I'm cutting 110% of all distractions out of my life and removing everything toxic to me, humans and non-humans c:
By the time these last 7 cigarettes are smoked by today, I will test my mental capacity. I'll be working my absolute hardest to become a success.
Of course it's all talk at the moment, but this post is here so I can look back a month from now and inspire myself, maybe i'll even inspire you to find the better "you" in yourself.
"For those of us who skipped making New Year's resolutions, the enterprising Aries New Moon on March 27, 2017, offers another opportunity to set new intentions in motion. Resistance falls away now, leaving us without any excuses. We can visualize a final destination, and there's no reason to delay getting started. However, we might swing into action too quickly since Aries has only one setting: yes. Thankfully, a small dose of caution plays well now.
Action-planet Mars is energized during this New Moon, but making real progress might be more complicated than we prefer. A surreal Mars-Neptune sextile distracts us from reality while inspiring us to greater heights. We could even misread the signs and jump to the conclusion that reaching our goals will be a piece of cake.
However, Mars also runs into an unscheduled review by taskmaster Saturn, making sure we are prepared before moving ahead. Balancing our innocent desire to achieve immediate success with a more mature understanding of gradual progress enables us to work hard, practice patience, and accomplish more than we ever thought possible. The only major aspect to this Aries New Moon is a conjunction to retrograde Venus. Venus herself struggles somewhat in this sign as she’s far more about creating harmony and loving relationships. Venus is all about ‘I love you’ but in Aries it’s about ‘I love me!’. Instead of striking out and starting new projects or relationships, this New Moon suggests we need to go within and bravely learn to love ourselves first and foremost. Self love is integral to the path ahead. As we reappraise our relationships and how we spend our time and energy, there is also a necessary reassessment of our core values too. A stronger awareness of what matters to us most helps us to define our goals more clearly, giving them extra fire." (Info by astrologer Rick Levine) #teamscorpio#mooninaries 🌙♈️
Snack: a little banana. 🍌
I'm so #motivated right now! I made a #plan to build up my food with mom and for the first time I'm happy about it. According to this plan, it will take me 4-5 weeks to build up my food pattern to a normal one. So mentally and physically I can adapt myself to a normal, but healthy eating pattern.
I'm really happy with this plan! So that makes me extra motivated to go for it! Mom told me that if I could follow my plan till the end, that she'll reward me with shopping. I know that this is external motivation, but sometimes you have to begin with external motivation to find you're intern motivation.
By the way my intern motivation isn't that bad, I really want a normal #life and I don't wanna have this struggles anymore. So I'm going to fight for all this💪
Now studying #biochemistry as you can probably see in this picture. 😊