'I See You'
In the distant past I was a train-wreck and due to many things that I was unwilling/unable to face, spent years doing everything I could to fill the screaming pit of fear and emptiness inside of me with whatever distraction worked best.. of course nothing worked for long as avoiding my soul needs for healing, only made it worse and eventually everything unravelled and I hit rock bottom with ptsd that meant I could rarely sleep and such bad anxiety and depression that I was suicidal and desperate to be done with everything.. some miracles intervened and saved my life for which I was totally ungrateful and angry at the time.. but with my 'out' cut off and forced into counselling I finally had to get real and start dealing with everything poisoning me from within.. it was torturous at first and I really didn't think I could actually live through the intensity of emotions that were unleashed and the road got even rockier for a while..As I began to see little bits of light..I grew my first hope that maybe there was more than all that.. I began learning mindfulness and meditation and integrating these practices into my everyday enabled me to move from broken, victim to survivor and then beyond to creator of my life.. I could finally be authentic and met other wonderful souls so full of love and kindness and helped restore my faith in humanity.. after avoiding it for so long I learned that being seen and being heard are such basic human needs, that none of us can thrive without.. So I began to really look back at my fellow man, trying to be as fully present as I could and from this my life became one I loved.. So 'I see you'
embodies so much, that is of huge importance in my life and is what I chose in answer to a 3word challenge using theme of something that #inspired or is an #inspiration ..
I was tagged some days ago and this was what felt most right, but wasn't going to use it as it is obviously not an original quote. Then I got tagged twice more over the following days and tho I had some good 3word ideas, this is the one that speaks from my heart and I need to post what's in me to share.. regardless of challenges or not..😊
Continued in comments..