Bakal jarang ketemu sama sahabat terbaikku ini.
Hati2 berangkat ke jakartanya ,maaf ya ga bisa anter ke stasiun. semoga nyaman dengan pekerjaanmu dsna bosku . god bless you
Even through the pain…
Even through the disappointments… even through the let downs, the trusts, the lost trusts, the gained trusts, the people leaving, people coming (but knowing they’ll eventually leave some day just like everybody else has in the past…)… Even through the fact that not everybody leaves — some stay… some endure… some sit, bravely, with you in your pain… holding your hand, never letting go, carrying you when you are spinning too much to walk.
Even through the 28 different medications failing… Even through the knowledge no medication will work. Even through the knowledge that talking and openness and trust and building what was never gotten will help it just takes so much time…
Even through knowing chronic severe treatment-resistant depression isn’t just a wondering thought… but a reality. Even through the desperation…
Still I reach… I reach for hope I can’t let myself have because my hope is like excitement — burning way too fast and then all I’m left with are blisters of what could have been if it may have been possible because my brain needed that hope to be a reality but reality just wouldn’t listen.
Even through ALL of this, I hold onto you. I hold onto you with everything in me and I know you’ll hold onto me when I lose strength. When my fingers go numb from holding so tightly because if I lighten up — we’re holding tightly to my lifeline. So I hold… and I reach… and I reach despite the fact I know how many minutes it is from when I saw you last to when I’ll see you again… but I trained my brain to forget the minutes and try SO hard to not remember the calculations I made while crying on my bed at night staring at the ceiling figuring out the moments it’ll be until I am with you in my safe place again.
Can you see it? New Moon rising last night at dusk over Circular Quay. I saw this bright slither of light just by accident through the sunset clouds.
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. — Harriet Tubman
Posting this from work. I will say that I managed to get a few shots before the rain interrupted me yesterday. Some turned out better than I thought they would.
I also thought it was going to be a decent sunset, but lately we've had these late evening storms roll in. Hoping we'll get some breaks and see more color soon.