I thought it was time for an intro,
Hi, my name is Carmen. I am a wife and mother of two living in Auckland NZ
I recently started blogging, I don't write about just anything I write about something that is not spoken enough about. Mental illness.
I talk about my journey with anxiety, the effects it has had on my weight, my life and how I am slowly trying to rid my life of anxiety.
I chose to use this photo to introduce myself to you because in this photo I see 10 months of wedding planning, 10 months of anxiety at its highest, 10 months of being uneducated about mental health, 10 months of not asking for help and a wedding morning fueled by anxiety but mistaken for a " brideszilla"
The toll of that 10 months shows in my face and in my eyes when I see that photo. That was a turning point for me and after that day my journey of understanding anxiety and depression started. I did not start this blog for likes or followers I started it because this is close to my heart. I know there a many many people who deal with this on a daily basis to all different degrees so I know a lot of people can relate but also help me along the way!
Rather then letting it take over my life for any longer I plan to use it to my advantage and say see ya later to anxiety for good. This is my journey... ✌
For now x
So excited to be "officially" in comp prep mode! New training program, new food program, new goals, new mindset, new coach JOKES JOKES! Taking on this exciting journey again with none other than Mr Coachy himself @robj_alphaphysique of Alpha Physique. Too keen to see what we can smash out this season 💪🏽👊🏽💥🔱❤️🖤 #seasonb#icn#tookeen#byefelicia
"Lions are not moved by the actions of sheep." Good thing I'm a wolf, and I don't perform in the circus. .
p.s. The quote is "opinions of sheep" not actions. If you're gonna try to intimidate me, please do it right. Also, nice try. 😂
If u can't #laughoutloud every day then there's something wrong. And if you don't have a friend whom you can call and you both spit out your coffee at your desks from #laughing so hard then I'm very sad for you. I laugh out loud every day...even when im Alone and look like a crazy person cos life really is flippen #funny . People need to #lightenup and stop taking themselves and their menial meaningless shit so seriously. If there's someone in your life who gives you drama every.single.time. you're together, who makes snide remarks and sucks all the positive energy out of the air just by their presence then - #byeFelicia .🙋 I #lovetolaugh and because I laugh often I laugh easily. And my friends are nuts. Like those laughs you get in church at a funeral when u sit behind someone with a funny hat, or in a packed meeting...that laugh when ur not supposed to laugh is the worst. That's why i could never read the news. I laugh a lot at myself, I laugh at my colleagues (we laugh a lot in the office), I laugh at stuff i see on the street and I mostly surround myself with people who make me laugh out loud. If people don't find me funny I immediately question their intelligence. 🤔 Same when I don't find them funny. 🤔 Life is awful, and horrible and then it's insanely funny. And the best is when you find the person / people who make you laugh out loud in the worst situations. Stop being so fucking serious! #livelovelaugh
No I'm not on that medication anymore. 😂😂 #highonlife
Hawaii is home to me, and I'm feeling extremely grateful that the feeling of home and ohana these islands give me is strong enough to always have me landing back in the aloha state. You can take the girl off the island, but ya can't take the island out of thiiiss girl 🌊💙Now my path has guided me back to the east coast for the unfoldment of a new chapter, and I'm beyond excited about the things to come. I'm not settling for anything less than good vibes, pure love, and just flat out awesomeness, and my happiness isn't limited to a place, people, or things in general 💃🏼 I'm going to stay unlimited in this way, and stay following my heart no matter where it leads me because I know it's leading me to my fullest potential.. and those things together are the equivalent of success to me. The journey is a winding river, and a fun one at that. I'm just in the boat letting go of the oars as the currents get strong. I trust these waters are leading me where I'm meant to be so I'm flowing because the only thing that remains the same is change 💎In this present moment my heart is telling me that it's a fertile time to let go of ALL social media for awhile and connect more fully with myself as I work on some projects. I want all of my inspiration to begin from within as I manifest my dreams into reality. I suppose I'll let my actions do the talking, so this will be my last post for a year or so 🎶👋🏼🌴💕😜 #byeinsta#byefelicia#butillbeback in a big way. I gotta stay tuned in, and #staynavigating 💙xx